2:10 UPDATE

I took Silas, Naomi, and my grandma up to see Devon this morning. He showed us all the tricks his bed could do, he and I took a bunch of pics while everyone else hunted down the cafeteria, and then we headed downstairs to surgery. We headed home right before they drugged him up. Then I came home, ate lunch, and konked out. I just called and talked to Tim and Devon. The surgeon took some before and after pics that they showed Tim (wish I could have seen them!) and said everything went well. I spoke to Devon briefly and he was quick to tell me he's had two popsicles since getting out of surgery. He should be heading home soon!

IT'S SURGERY DAY

They secured an operating room! His surgery will be at 11:30. It will be laproscopic surgery, which is not what Silas had. They'll go in through his belly button, do the bad side first, then the mild side. Devon has had an umbilical hernia his whole life that's never been a problem and they're going to take care of that too. Hopefully he'll get discharged today, but there's a chance they'll keep him another night. Getting a room so quickly is a huge blessing!

ANOTHER HOSPITAL ADVENTURE

This time the star of the show was Devon.

We've had an interesting 4 1/2 hours. We were at a rummage sale earlier in the evening when Devon suddenly started crying and screaming in pain. Tim took him out to the car to try and figure out what was going on. I kept shopping with the other two kiddos. Brandon and Becky were also there and knew Devon was having a hard time. A few minutes later Brandon came and told me that Tim had called Becky from the car and said to send me out, that something was seriously wrong with Devon. While I gathered things up, Becky and Brandon went out to the van. As I crossed the parking lot I asked Becky, who happens to be a nurse, if I was going to spend the evening in the ER. She said yes. Devon was going to need an emergency hernia repair.

Well, it turned out that I dropped Devon and Tim off at the hospital, then took the other two kids home. Our worst case scenario was emergency hernia repair and the loss of a testicle. Thankfully that didn't happen. The hospital called in the only surgeon who is qualified to do both the hernia repair and the testicular surgery. He evaluated everything and decided to try and push the hernia back manually. Surgery on an inflamed area that's all twisted up is not exactly ideal. Operating on a non-twisted, non-swollen area would be much easier. I'm sure that doing it manually was excruciating for the Devs.

Anyway, it worked!! Awesome! And as the hernia went back, the portion that was in the scrotum retracted. Even more awesome!! He still has to have surgery, but not tonight.

In the process of pushing that thing back they realized he has a mild hernia on the other side too, so that will have to get fixed. They're going to keep him overnight and watch things while all the swelling goes down, etc. They also want to try feeding him a little to see if it causes any pain or discomfort. Tim's going to call surgery in the morning and schedule a repair asap, as the surgeon wants it done in the next few days.

Here's what you can pray for - good sleep for Devon & Tim in the hospital tonight, that the hernia stays put until surgery, and that Tim can schedule something in the next couple days. The scheduling is going to be a little tricky since no one wants to come operate on the weekend, but the fact that he was in the ER should help our cause.

We'll keep you posted on the latest episode of "Medical Crisis - "W" Style" as we get new information.

SPOTTED ONLINE

UPDATE: I have failed as a mother and neglected to put the link to Devon's appearance on the Athey kid's blog. Scroll down for that addition.

I've been finding my family in various places lately. Want to see us?

Parker's party at Lee Farms on Michele's blog - Naomi crying because she ran out of cake (second pic), Easton coming up to feel Naomi's curls (sixth pic), Naomi being cute (seventh pic), me handing a chick to Silas (last pic).

Grade school movie night - Silas getting a piggy back ride (last pic, on the right, in the background) and busting a move (first pic, dead center).

OMSI with Jess & Charley - The boys making flubber, Naomi dancing and being cute.

Jay & Cher's wedding - Tim and I at the wedding of one of his high school friends.

Cupcake day at church - Devon talking to the skunk (bottom pic, to the right of the skunk), watching the skunk (first pic, behind & to the left of the skunk).

MY MENTAL HEALTH

Three weeks after Silas drowned I started having a hard time dealing with it. My sister is the only person I told that I was struggling. A week later someone on the Sonlight forums, a person who had somehow missed the original drowning announcement and was just hearing about it, asked how I was doing. I lost it. I was sitting at my computer sobbing uncontrollably and just typed out everything I was feeling. Tim walked in the room as I was typing and asked what was wrong. So I told him. A few days later I told my dad.

Here is what I said on the forums. How am I? Oh goodness. Well, I'm a lousy liar, so I'll tell the truth. I was fine til about 1 1/2 weeks ago. Since then I've had some rough days. It's like delayed grief for what could have been. Weird. Normal, I know, but still weird. I get sick to my stomach when I think of all the practical aspects of how that day could have played out - telling everyone, driving home from my dad's with an empty car seat, having Devon in a room to himself, stopping a core just one month into the year. Every time I see the pic that could have been the last one we ever took of him I want to hurl. And I have moments where I'm so angry at the adults who were there when it happened. We aren't really telling people what exactly happened because those who were there already feel badly enough. We don't want anyone making them feel worse. But I just get so fired up sometimes.

It's a little weird to have such a strong physical and emotional reaction to something that didn't happen. Silas didn't die. Or at least he didn't stay dead. I was grieving what could have happened. On one hand I know that's normal and I'm fine with going through the process. On the other hand, I don't want to get stuck in the land of grief, anger, and the urge to hurl, particularly over an end result that was never reality.

I felt better after spilling the beans online and talking with Tim. My little episodes went from several times a day, every day to a few times a week. Then they were less than weekly. It happened last night and that's what made me realize I'm doing better. I realized at that moment that I couldn't pinpoint the last time it happened. Progress!! I'm sure there will always be things that trigger some sort of reaction, last night it was something in a book I was reading. But those moments are getting fewer and farther between.

CIARA

I figured I better give an update on my love life, the one that started on Tuesday. Tim and I have spent some time talking and praying about what to do. We both have a desire to take in kids with special needs. We're not opposed to healthy babies, but that's all that most people are willing to take. Meanwhile, there are a lot of older kids with physical, behavioral, and/or emotional issues that no one is interested in bringing into their family. Those are the kids I look at a few times a year. Those are the kids we want to help.

So, here's the plan. We aren't going to pursue any specific child right now. What we are going to do is start educating ourselves about kids with drug and/or alcohol exposure, children who have been abused physically, sexually, or verbally, and kids with attachment issues. We are going to look into completing a home study. Basically, we're going to get our ducks in a row so that we can be as prepared as possible, realizing you can never be completely prepared, to take in a child who needs some extra care.

My sister e-mailed me the other day to ask the name of the girl I fell in love with. As she said, the name of the kid that lights a little fire under you is an important name, even if it's not the name of a kid who ever joins your family.

So, without further ado, let me introduce you to Ciara.

This sweet little girl will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers, even if she never sets foot in my home. And if she tugs at your heart too, then go check out her information. Maybe she could join your family.

I'M IN LOVE

Tim and I have always talked about fostering or adopting through the foster system "some day". So, periodically I look through an adoption exchange site, which is filled with pics and bios on older kids (non-babies) who need homes.

Well, I just found the cutest little girl! Oh my! And here's what's interesting. You know how the boys were both born in my birthday month, with Devon and I sharing a b-day? And you know how Naomi shares a birthday with Tim? Well, this sweet little girl was also born in Tim's birthday month! And there's a two year spread between her and the Nomes, just like the two year spread between the boys. I'd have two sets of same gendered kids, born in the same month, with a two year spread!

Is it a sign?

She just got listed this month too. Oh man, she's cute! Off to get some info. Like, how in the world we would pay for an adoption.

Even if nothing happens with this little girl, maybe my interest in her will be the kick in the pants I need to pursue this stuff more seriously.

R - R - R - R - R - R

Dad, I tried to do a single, lower case "r" but the keyboard wouldn't let me.

Rebates - Oh. My. Word. You are not going to believe what I scored on Sunday. Rite Aid was having a phenomenal sale this week! If you go here you can check out the ad page with all the deals. It's the west coast flyer, so if you live somewhere else then just punch in your zip code. I'm guessing it's the same nationwide, but better safe than sorry. The sale is going on through tomorrow, so head to your store and see if anything is left. A few of the things below were from Walgreens, but most were from Rite Aid. After sales, coupons, and rebates (which I won't get sent to me til next month) I will have paid .... well, I'll let you look at this and guess what the original price was and what my final price will be. Then I'll give the answer in the comment section in a couple days. This picture does not include one box of cold medicine and one cold sore medication that I already gave away.

Recipes - As you know, I recently started a blog for my recipe file. While I may be good at collecting recipes, I am totally incapable of creating them myself. So I gather them from other places. I find a lot at Allrecipes. One of the features I like about that site is that you can do an ingredient search, with up to four ingredients you do want and four that you don't. The reviews from other readers are also helpful. The other place I get the bulk of my recipes from is the Sonlight forums. The vast majority of the people there are using Sonlight curriculum and get forum access for free, but anyone can pay for a forum membership. Kelly is one of my forum friends and she also just started her own recipe blog. She always has great recipes and I've put her recipe blog in my blog reader. Where do you find recipes you love? Give me some links in the comment section!!

Recreation - Why pay for gymnastics classes and memberships at various "move your body" places for young kids when you can do it all for free at home? Just click on the "play" button.

CARROT PIE

About a week ago Silas decided he wanted to make a carrot pie. He'd never seen or tasted carrot pie in his life. I think he was inspired by the carrots growing in our garden. 

Wise beyond his years, he realized the answers to all of life's problems can be found on the Sonlight forums. So he asked if he could post a thread under my name. He put out a request for carrot pie and got several responses. He chose one and made the pie today. 

I sliced the carrots and put the pie in and took it out of the oven, but he did all the rest of the work - reading the recipe, measuring, processing, pouring, slicing, serving. He used frozen pie crusts, which obviously made the process easier. 

Tonight was the big taste test and the pies passed with flying colors. So delicious that both pies were eaten in one sitting! I've posted the recipe at FOR THE LOVE OF GRUB for those who want to try it out.

LINKS I LIKE #3

Here's another post I haven't done in ages. So, here are a few sites I think are worthy of passing on to you.

Oregon's Unclaimed Property - Free money! Who would turn that down? You can search this site to see if Oregon has any money for you. I've never found anything that belonged to me personally, but I've found lots of friends and family here. Some of them have received some large checks too! Check it out if you live here currently or have in the past. If you aren't from Oregon, then google the name of your state along with "unclaimed property" to find the site for your state. Some states will tell you specifically what is waiting for you, while Oregon just tells you if it's over or under $50.

Around the Sun - This site gives you a heads up on all sorts of cheap or free things going on in the Portland area. There is a regular weekly post for the upcoming weekend, plus a variety of other posts spotlighting a particular event.

Hiking Up Hill - Sandy is a woman I know through the Sonlight forums who was diagnosed with breast cancer on 7/3/08. This site chronicles her battle against the disease, gives tips to mastectomy patients and their caregivers, shows the financial cost of treatment, and has some fun pics of head shavings and the hats made to keep bald heads warm in the winter. She's real - voicing the struggles one day and being upbeat the next.

GENTLE & CHEERFUL

Proverbs 15:1 A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.

Proverbs 15:30 A cheerful look brings joy to the heart, and good news gives health to the bones.

It's hard to be grumpy when you choose to keep a smile on your face. It's hard to speak harshly when you keep your voice soft. It's hard to be discouraging when you are kind.

My goals for the day are to have a mouth that speaks gently and a face that is cheerful. I have some room for improvement in both of those areas, particularly when dealing with the little Ws. Care to join me?

FREE ADVERTISING #6

Haven't done one of these posts in a while, so here goes.

Time is of the essence for this one. Linda, whose jewelry I've blogged about before, is giving away a $25 gift certificate to her etsy store. She's posting the winner on Thursday, so be sure to enter right away! I'm going to do my entry this evening and hope to win. Of course, then I'd have to decide whether to spend it on myself or on Christmas gifts.

Thinking about buying a house in Sherwood? Well, Laura just happens to have one for sale. Go check it out! It has three bedrooms, 2.5 baths, a bonus room, living room, family room and is located within walking distance to Snyder Park.

Looking for a baby shower gift? Feel the need to get something for your own little person? Then check out Rachelle's etsy store for some super cute handmade items for a baby's room.

Over the summer I met Erica, a woman from church whose business was just kicking off. I hadn't seen her since that meeting and forgot about her business. Then I saw her at church on Sunday and it all came back to me. So, I looked up her company's site to see how things were going. She makes a really neat product called "Hooray For You" note tags that are now being sold all over the country. Go check them out. Could be a perfect Christmas gift for someone!

GOOD TIMES

October is time for the annual pumpkin patch trip with my dad. This was the weekend he came up and we all had a great time.

Friday - My dad arrived to our house in the early afternoon. We headed to Chuck E. Cheese for a couple hours of pizza, games, rides, and stuff to climb on. When we came home my dad performed a magic trick for the boys, impressing them with his ability to read minds.

Saturday - We headed to Baggenstos Farm for a day of fun in the sun. We hit the pumpkin patch, walked through the corn maze, did pumpkin bowling, ate lunch, and climbed all over a play structure. Everyone konked out for an afternoon nap when we got home, then my grandma came over for dinner.

Sunday - We all went to church in the morning, hit "Old McDonalds" for lunch, then home for more naps. After dinner we headed out to the garden to pick pumpkins. Yes, you read that right. We don't actually get pumpkins when we go to the pumpkin patch because we have them growing in our garden. The boys carved up their pumpkins with some help from Tim and my dad. I made up some kettle corn and then it was off to bed for the little Ws. Naomi, who falls asleep easily at night, would not konk out. She cried and cried and cried. Eventually my dad took her and she immediately fell asleep in his arms.

And that was the end of a wonderful weekend.

TOOTHLESS (SORTA) BOY

This picture was taken about 60 seconds after Silas lost his first tooth. The little red dot in his left hand is a bloody tooth. The red in his mouth is the bleeding hole where the tooth used to reside. The cup in his right hand is holding bloody spit since he didn't want to swallow any blood.

This little adventure started about three weeks ago when we discovered Silas had shark teeth. One adult tooth was up and another had just broken through his gums. Since then he's been working on loosening the baby teeth in front of the shark teeth. One tooth, the one he lost tonight, was getting loose. Not ready to fall out, but definitely loose.

Flash forward to this evening. The boys are eating apples at the table and I'm working in the kitchen. Suddenly, Silas starts crying. I go to check on him and see some blood around the loose tooth. I scoop him up and we head to the bathroom to do damage control. I ask what happened and he tells me that he hit his teeth with his apple. On purpose. Evidently he only intended to hit the top teeth and forgot that they're in close proximity to the loose bottom teeth.

Now he's all upset and doesn't want the tooth to come out at all. He's afraid it's going to hurt even worse than ramming a hard apple into it does. I explain that sometimes it hurts a little and sometimes it doesn't hurt at all. He's not convinced. He finally pulls himself together and heads out of the bathroom. I go back to work in the kitchen. The phone rings. It's Tim. As I'm talking to him Silas starts grunting repeatedly. I look over and he has his tooth in his hand and bloody drool pooling in his lower lip. I grab a cup for him to spit into and the rest is history.

He's in bed now with his tooth under his pillow. He didn't want to put it under his pillow because it has dried blood on it and he doesn't want his sheets to get stained. He didn't want to wrap it in a napkin because he was afraid the Tooth Fairy wouldn't realize there was a tooth in the napkin. So, he wrapped it in a napkin and wrote "tooth" across it. No stained sheets. No confused Tooth Fairy.

We won't get the traditional picture of a kid with his first gaping hole in his lineup of teeth because the adult tooth is right behind the hole. But it's still a long-awaited, frequently discussed milestone for Silas.

IT'S A GOOD THING SHE'S CUTE

It is 2:36am. Naomi just ate her dinner. The dinner she wasn't the least bit interested in at 5:00pm. Seems her stomach was missing food badly enough to wake her up ... and keep her awake.

Now I'm awake and can't sleep. So, I'm eating cereal and trying to get sympathy from my readers. Feel sorry for me?

Like I said, it's a good thing she's cute. And full. And sleeping.

TUNES WE LISTENED TO - SEPTEMBER

I've started a new thing around here and I'm calling it the Music Appreciation Project. Each time we go to the library I'm picking up a bunch of CDs from a variety of musical genres. We're enjoying the adventure - laughing at the ones that we find ridiculous, singing to the ones we find catchy, and relaxing to the mellow ones. The kids have had several dance parties via the MAP music too.

Here are the tunes we listened to in September.

Eric Bibb - Get Onboard (Jazz)
Carlene Carter - Stronger (Country)
Jeff Coffin - Mutopia (Jazz)
Herbie Hancock - River: The Joni Letters (Jazz)
Putumayo - Baila!: A Latin Dance Party (World - Latin)
Putumayo - A Native American Odyssey: Inuit to Inca (World - Native American)
Saba - Jidka: The Line (World - Africa)
Tinariwen - Aman Iman: Water is Life (World - Africa)
Carreras Domingo Pavarotti - The Three Tenors in Concert: Mehta (Opera)

GETTING THE DAILY BREAD

Proverbs 30:8b-9 Give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you and say 'Who is the Lord?' Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God.

I love these verses. They've been underlined in my Bible for a long time. All we truly need is enough for right now. That's it. That's what a "need" is. It's what is necessary for survival. And God has provided some extra money for right now. It's not a permanent solution, but it's part of God's provision of our daily bread.

I have spent my whole life seeing God provide, yet it never ceases to amaze and bless me. I'm thankful that we have our daily bread. I'm also thankful that God often blesses us with more than our daily bread.

BOOKS I FINISHED - SEPTEMBER 2008

Financial Peace Revisited, by Dave Ramsey
Easy read and simple, practical financial advice. He is pretty popular with my generation, a generation buried in debt by their mid-twenties and getting out of it by using his advice.

Memory's Keep, by James Everett Kibler
This is the sequel to Walking Toward Home, a book I read earlier this year. It focuses in on one, well I suppose two, of the characters from the first book. I loved Walking Toward Home and was looking forward to reading another book by the same author. While Memory's Keep was all right, it wasn't nearly as good as I hoped. Just too slow.

Playing for Pizza, by John Grisham
A non-legal story that I spontaneously pulled off the library shelf. One of the things to be learned in this book is that it's important to love the things we do, to not to things simply for money or status. Good lesson. There was a lot of talk about girls and drinking though, and that was a bit of a turnoff.

$47 AND SOME CLARIFICATION

Despite the title, I think I'm going to do the clarification first. I had a conversation with someone yesterday about my last two posts. I think I may have given the wrong impression to some of you. So, let me clarify something.

I absolutely know we should all be cheerful and frequent givers. I absolutely know that DINKs who will eventually have kids will have to learn to live on one income. I absolutely know that we are going to have to rework our budget in light of Tim's new income.

However, and here's the clarification, I do not think there is anything wrong with DINKs who live off both incomes. I do not think there is anything wrong with spending money on fun stuff for yourself, such as pedicures, golf, or fancy vacations. I do not think that we need to deny ourselves all luxuries, whether simple or extravagant. I do not think we should be so focused on cutting back that we become miserly or obsessed with money (and yes, you can become obsessed with having little in the same way as you can about having much).

God is the one who supplies our needs. Sometimes he does it through our regular paycheck. Sometimes he does it through other ways. Sometimes he allows us to be part of his provision for someone else.

So, I just want to make sure that everyone understands where I'm coming from. Trust God for his provision. Recognize all the ways you are blessed. Bless others whenever possible. Be wise with what God has entrusted to you.

Make sense?

All righty then. Moving on the the $47. I've told a few of you this story already, and some heard a version that involved a different dollar amount. This is the final version.

Seven weeks ago I was sitting in a hospital room with Silas. He had just drowned and God had chosen to bring life back to his little body. I was thinking about the expenses we were incurring and feeling a little discouraged. I wasn't stressed, but I was definitely feeling like the "one step forward" we'd been taking in paying of school debt more quickly was about to be met with the "two steps back" of paying medical expenses we hadn't planned for. Obviously the option of having Silas live while our debt reduction slows down was a far better option than having him die. That's a no-brainer. But I still wondered what the whole ordeal was going to cost us and how long it would take to get it paid off.

Well, here's how the last few weeks have played out. The hospital billed homeowner's insurance (HI). HI sent the check for the hospital bill to us. I deposited it and called the hospital with my debit card number. The hospital said that even though they billed HI, I would get a 10% private pay discount for paying the bill in full out of my own account.

Next, I called HI and asked what to do with the 10%, if I should send it back to credit the fund they had given us. I was told they have to pay the full billed amount, even if we get a discount. Lame on their end, but works for me. I left the money sitting there for any expenses we'd incur personally.

Then we got a bill from the ambulance. They had billed our health insurance because they didn't want to mess with HI sending us a check. Our insurance paid 80%. I paid the remaining 20% out of the discount money I still had from the hospital.

The doctor who saw us at the hospital billed HI and that check was also sent to us. We did the debit card over the phone for the full amount.

The next bill was from radiology. They hadn't billed anyone, but I still had discount money in my account, so I paid the bill in full.

Everyone is paid. We have not paid a dime of our own money.

But wait. It gets better.

Remember that discount money that I've been paying bills from? Well, there is still $47 left. We actually made money from Silas' drowning! As I told some people the other night, I wouldn't recommend that method of income, as it's pretty risky, but it's still pretty cool it worked out that way.

I can't justify going out to dinner or buying new clothes with insurance money that was designated for medical bills. I know I didn't do anything wrong, didn't work the system, but it would still be weird. So, I'm going to sign Silas up for swimming lessons. Don't you think that's fitting?

$350

How would your life change if you took a $350/month cut in pay? Would it impact your daily life? If so, then how? That's what we're figuring out around here today. Tim got his first paycheck for this school year yesterday and it was $350 less than last year's checks. For the last two years some employees have been given a bit of an extra workload, but that's gone due to some restructuring of programs.

Before I go on, let me tell you that I'm not in a panic. In fact, I'm feeling a little excited to take on the challenge. We have a $1000 emergency fund we can access, several hundred dollars left from Tim's summer school income, and upcoming checks for Tim's basketball officiating. So, we'll have a roof over our heads and food in our stomachs. That takes a lot of pressure off. We are not "in need". However, I want to use as little as possible of that money. I'd rather learn to live within our new income than to dip into money that we're planning to use for paying off that stupid school debt.

I'm pretty open about money stuff, so I'll tell you how this is playing out around here. In order to pay all bills, we will have -$140. We will not have money for our flex funds, such as entertainment, gifts, clothing, etc. The plan for now is to use some of the summer income to get through this month, but have a new plan in place for next month.

You know we've been working hard to make extra payments toward school debt, so we could earn $100 back by dropping our payment back to the required amount. That prospect doesn't excite me because I hate debt, but it's an option.

We could ditch the cell phones and get a landline. However, we wouldn't really see a savings there for a while as we'd have connection fees for setting up the land line and penalties for breaking our cell phone contract.

So, do you want to help me brainstorm ways to cut costs? We're pretty frugal to start with, so I'm having a hard time coming up with new ideas. Most people can afford to cut costs a little in some area, so let's see what we can come up with as a group.

* Turn the heat down and put on more clothes. We generally keep the house cool during the winter, but last year I turned into a whiner and kept it up far more often than usual. That was the worst financial decision I made all year. When it came time to recalculate our equal payment plan our bill got raised $70/month. Yikes! Of course, I won't let us freeze to death and we always turn the heat up when guests are here, but otherwise sweatshirts and blankets will be our best friends again.

* Turn off lights. Don't let your home become gloomy, but don't pay to have it look like broad daylight in every room all day long. Use small lamps instead of overhead lights, don't leave lights on in rooms where there are no people, etc.

* Watch the water. Turn off the water while you lather up in the shower and while you brush your teeth. Use the leftover water in someone's glass to water a plant. Fill the bottom of the sink with an inch or two of water and use that for rinsing dirty dishes instead of doing it under a running faucet. I love, love, love showers that are long and scalding hot. Of course, that makes my skin completely dry out, so I only shower every two days. I'd rather have a perfect shower less often than a mediocre one every day. I'm going to cut back my shower time though.

* Beans and rice. We already eat these things regularly, but I'll probably add more to the menu. They are inexpensive, healthy, and filling.

* Hot cereal. We also eat a lot of oatmeal and 7-grain, but we'll eat more for the same reasons as the beans and rice. We serve them with brown sugar, homemade freezer jam, applesauce, or a hot cereal sauce I have on my recipe blog. I also make crockpot granola and will start doing it more often.

And that's all I have for now.

So, tell me how a $350 dock in pay would play out in your neck of the woods? And how would you stretch your dollar? Even if I already do the things you suggest, they'll probably be helpful to someone else.

And one more time, just for the record, we're fine. We have enough money to live off of. We simply need to do some rearranging of things.