Wednesday, May 27, 2009

MY YARD

I love my yard. It has the potential to be amazingly beautiful, but we rent and aren't going to spend the time and money to get it that way. Even without being beautifully landscaped, it's such a nice place to be. Lots of space for a city lot, at least a quarter acre. Tons of trees, like eleven or twelve. Breathing space between neighbors, the side of one is at our back and no one else within 100 feet (that's my guess, but keep in mind I'm lousy at estimating stuff like that). After many years in an apartment, it's so nice to have some wiggle room.

I've been outside for several hours each day over the last couple weeks and it makes me appreciate what a blessing it is that we were able to rent this yard. I mean, this house. For those who have never come to visit, let me show you around.

This is the front yard, taken from the right side of the house. You can see our front porch on the right and our driveway just beyond it. The house in the distance is the second closest house to ours.



If you stood in the same spot as the last picture and turned 90 degrees to your right, then you'd see this gate to the backyard. Just out of the picture, on the right side, is a magnolia tree that causes me to rake at all times of the year.


Now turn another 90 degrees to the right and you'll see the corner of our lot, which is also a street corner. The fire hydrant just happens to be a great platform for little boys to do balancing acts and cool stunts on. You can just see the corner of the fence from the last picture on your right. Have your bearings? All right, moving on.


If you walked forward 30 feet from the last pic, toward the corner and turned 90 degrees to your left, then this is what you'd see. It's the side yard. The first tree has a swing hanging from it, though you can barely see it in the picture. It almost looks like a shelf coming off the tree behind it. Our property ends about six feet past the second tree. And no, that's not snow in the grass. It's the love that our two cottonwoods shower on us each year.

Now we'll backtrack and go into the backyard. If you went through the gate that was in a previous picture, then you'd enter the backyard to the right of the swing you see below. This picture was taken from the back patio.

And moving our gaze a little to the left we come to "the mound". That's the name of the area behind the big tree on the left. It's always a mess, filled with trucks, buckets and shovels. The kids spend hours there digging tunnels, building dams and all sorts of other exciting things. It's shady in the summer and dry in the light rain, a perfect place to get really grubby. And those two little trees leaning toward each other in the back? The cottonwoods, evidenced by the white grass all around them.


Now spin a little more to the left. You've turned a full circle now and you're looking at our back patio, garage and garden. What? You want to see more of the garden. Well, forward ... march!


This is the area directly across from the picnic table in the last picture. Strawberries are there from previous years, zukes and flowers are waiting to sprout. That's some sort of wild rose in the background.
Well, a sliver got lost between the last picture and this one, but this is directly across from the back of the garage. Tomatoes are in the cages and a gazillion other things are still in seed form here.


I know you wanted a better shot of my super fantastic tomato cages, so here you go. My dad made them for me a couple years ago and I love them!

Feet getting tired? All right, we'll wrap it up. This is on the opposite side of the garage, across from the tomato cages. It's where corn and pumpkins grow. There's actually a heap of blackberry bushes and a dog run to the right of this too. It's a bit of a mess back there. Anyway, if you looked over the fence in the background, then you'd be staring at our driveway, which means you've just looped around our whole yard. Wasn't that exciting?


Tuesday, May 26, 2009

SILAS' DAY ON THE RIVER

Silas went on a jet boat trip with the grade school group in the fall, but wasn't too crazy about it. He'd told us that he'd just skip the next trip.

Well, he changed his mind about that and spent nine hours with the grade school group on Saturday, including some time on the river. They spent time playing games and having a Bible study at The Shed, ate doughnuts, rode the river via Willamette Jetboat Excursions (one of the pics on that link is from the last grade school trip and I should go look around the site after I finish this post to see if I can spy Silas in any pics), and ate at The Old Spaghetti Factory (mac & cheese with root beer, a meal that Silas loved).

You can see all the pictures from the trip here, but I'll show you the specific posts where Silas can be spotted. Waiting in line (second pic), cruising the river (second pic, bottom right), and having a good time - though not as much fun as Josh appears to be having (first pic).

Monday, May 25, 2009

A GOOD WEEKEND

The last three days have been fabulous. Not terribly exciting, but still really nice. I was overdue for a few consecutive great days. Down time, busy time, and lots of hours spent outside.

It all started on Friday night when I mowed the lawn. I love mowing the lawn! I think God gave us the perfect rental when we ended up with one that has so much grass.

Saturday morning Tim dropped Silas off at The Shed for a day on the river, which I'll post pics of as soon as they make it to the grade school blog. Then he headed to the Happels to help them move while I hung out with Naomi and Devon. When he came home the four of us were taken out to lunch by Granny. Full tummies and no cooking or cleanup. Lovely! The afternoon and evening were spent puttering around the house.

Sunday morning was church, then we had lunch with the Mathias. And I got to hold Lucy. She's pretty cute! Kids napped and then we went to Sunday Night Celebration.

Then today rolled around. I rolled out of bed at 7:30 and was in the garden by 7:35. I didn't come in until 2:45. Oh, that is my dream day!! Pulling weeds, planting seeds, turning compost. It just doesn't get much better than that. Plus, Tim scored some major "good husband" points by taking the kids to the Nature Park for a while. I love my breaks that involve me leaving the house to do something alone, but I also love getting left home alone to work uninterrupted while all the offspring go somewhere else. I got some time alone with Naomi in the afternoon while the men of the house all took off to play baseball, then headed back outside to water the garden and go for a family walk after dinner. Wrapped up the day with a scalding hot shower. I'm about to crawl into bed with a book and some Samoas, then go to sleep at a reasonable hour.

I'm content.

Back to real life, which includes launching our final three weeks of the school year, tomorrow.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

GROCERY BUDGETS

I've been wondering something for a while, but keep forgetting to ask. So, here it is. How much do you spend on food and household items in one month, averaged between all household members?

If you don't have a budget, then you and I need to have a little chit chat. If you have a loose budget, then give your best estimate here. If you have a detailed budget, then this will be a breeze. Here are the things to factor in.

EXPENSES (I may have missed something, but I'm sure you get the idea)
groceries
dining out (it's food, after all)
cleaning supplies
toiletries
diapers
formula

INCOME
wages
food stamps
WIC vouchers

Now, here's what you're going to do. Take the amount of money (or money substitutes, like food stamps and WIC) that you spend on the expense category in a month. Then divide it by the number of people in your home. That number is what I want to know. Got it? Want me to clarify? Ok. If you spend $5000 dollars on food and household items each month and you have four people in your family, then your number for the poll would be $1250. Make sense?

Now, this is absolutely, positively not meant to be a contest to see who is the best bargain shopper or who has the most money to blow. Okey dokey? We all have factors that play into this that won't be apparent in a poll. Some homes have lots of food allergies and can only buy spendy food items, others may buy a lot of convenience items because both spouses (or a single parent) work, others have multiple kids in disposable diapers, prices vary throughout the country, etc. So, we won't judge anyone based on their average per person/per month number. This is purely for satisfying my curiosity.

I realize not everyone will be comfortable posting this information in the comment section for the whole world to see, so I'm going to put in the form of a poll on my sidebar. Please vote there, but you're welcome to comment here if you have something to say about it.

And then, I'll wrap it up with this little grocery tidbit. You guys know I love doing the Grocery Game at Rite Aid and Walgreens. I chose not to do it at Albertsons and Safeway because it wasn't the best option for us. However, I've been reading Frugal Living (which all you Portland area readers should also be doing), and popping into those two stores once or twice a month to pick up a couple freebies. This week I made a killing at Albertsons!! Three separate trips landed me with this collection of items.



(6) Sweet Baby Ray's BBQ Sauce
(1) Kraft Creamy Poppyseed Dressing
(1) Edge Shaving Gel
(1) Skintimate Shaving Gel
(2) French's Honey Mustard
(2) Lawry's Lemon Pepper Marinade

ORIGINAL PRICE (which would have been less if I'd been at my trusty old WinCo)
$42.70

FINAL PRICE
Zip, Zero, Zilch ... it was all free!!

Cool, huh?

5/21/09 THANKFUL THURSDAY

I'm thankful for the family I grew up in.

What's one thing you're thankful for?

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

COPING WITH MY CRISIS #4


I love yardwork! It's cheaper and more effective than any counseling I could have. Mowing the lawn is my all-time favorite chore, followed closely by planting a garden and pulling weeds. So, over the last few weeks I have spent many, many hours planting a garden, mowing the lawn, and digging up dandelions. The physical outlet feels great, the fresh air is good, the feeling of productivity is encouraging.

I know that there were some valid, obvious, tangible stressors going on when I lost it a few weeks ago. Anyone would have been stressed. But my response was over the top and I'm working on figuring out why. Meanwhile, I'm feeling normal again.

Monday, May 18, 2009

DRAMA MAMA

Morning - Meltdown in the hallway.




Afternoon - Meltdown at lunch.



Afternoon - The avoidance technique: Close your eyes, suck your thumb, lean your head to the side, ignore everyone around you.




Evening - The meltdown as we head off to Bible study.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

MENU - SECOND HALF OF MAY 2009

All righty, let me start by saying that the soup we tried on the last rotation was good. It was a creamy tomato soup and here's the recipe. I try to include at least one new recipe in each two week menu, but just noticed that there aren't any new ones this time around. Oops. And I got the recipe for potato enchiladas posted too. I tried freezing some of the leftover filling just to see how it tastes after freezing. We'll see.

Anyway, here's what in the lineup for the second part of May.

DINNERS
egg salad sandwiches (I'll make enough to have leftovers for lunch the next day)
Cajun sausage & beans (I'll make a double batch and freeze half)/rice
meatloaf (I'll make two and freeze one)/couscous/salad
bbq chicken pizza (going to try a homemade crust for the first time, kinda nervous)/salad
vegetarian baked beans/salad
broccoli pesto (this got skipped last time for dinner with family)/salad
beef eldorado/salad
Mexican casserole/cornbread (from the freezer)/salad (making a double batch of this whole meal and delivering one to another family)
chunky potato soup/biscuits
meatball sandwiches (meatballs from the freezer)/raw veggie sticks (this got skipped last time for something random)
leftovers x3
tacos x2

DESSERTS
ice cream & brownies
sesame cookies

And just for the sake of random information, I'll mention that I always use ground turkey in place of ground beef, make double batches of recipes and freeze half as often as possible, use my crockpot weekly for two recipes and a couple times a month for other recipes, and make lots of salads. It's easier for me to make one honkin' salad to eat for two dinners than to make a different cooked veggie every night.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

JUST SHOOTIN' THE BREEZE

I desperately need to go take a shower, but I figured I'd enjoy the silence while everyone is napping and do a little blogging instead.

Big Sale - Little heads up that Value Village is having one of their 50% off days on Memorial Day! It's a perfect time to stock up on clothes for your kiddos. As it's a thrift store, you never know what they'll have in stock, but you can always buy for upcoming seasons if they don't have what you need for right now.

Celebrity Week - This has been a high profile week on the Sonlight forums. The first woman announced that her husband has been nominated for an Emmy. They are the couple who wrote a song that was influenced by Silas' drowning and I met her at the BFM last year. The second woman announced that her brother's wedding is going to be featured on TLC. Her daughter is the flower girl and the forum folks are the ones who helped pick her dress. The third woman announced that her son landed a lead role in an upcoming Rob Reiner film. She's shared the whole Hollywood adventure with us from his first scouting event to his first Wal-Mart commercial to this latest job. I met most of their family (the two adult daughters weren't there) at the BFM too. What a fun week!

Summer Basketball - Tim officiates for the Portland Basketball Officials Association during the regular basketball season. However, he also works some tournaments during the summer. His first summer games are tonight. How did it get to be the middle of May so quickly?!

Yard Sale - As I was mowing our honkin' lawn today I had a random thought. Our yard is perfect for a multi-family yard sale. Perfect, I tell ya!! Lots of space, corner lot, close to 217, 26, Cedar Hills Blvd and Walker Rd, blah, blah, blah. Of course, I'm such a purger of things we don't use, I don't think I could come up with enough stuff to justify having my own yard sale. But if local readers wanted to use our yard for one big sale, then we'd be happy to host it!! And if that's a lame idea, then that's ok too.

Hair - I always get my hair cut at NorthWest College in Aloha. It's a beauty school and haircuts are $9.00. At least that's how much they used to be. When I went in today they only charged me $5.00! The girl said they've dropped their prices. What a pleasant surprise!! So, if you're looking for a bargain haircut, then drop by one of their campuses around the Portland area. They also offer other cosmetology services.

Nightstand & Lumber - I scored a free nightstand yesterday!! It's pretty cute, though I can't decide if I want to refinish or paint it. We'll see. The house that was getting rid of it also had a pile of lumber to get rid of, so Tim let the boys take all the pieces that didn't have nails. They're stoked about all their new wood and will come up with some creative projects for it.

Swimming - Speaking of the boys, they are halfway through their first swimming lessons and are having fun with it.

Well, I better go remove the smell of cut grass from my body and then clean my house. Enjoy the rest of your Saturday!!

Friday, May 15, 2009

WHICH PRIZE WOULD YOU GET?

UPDATE - I chose Amazon. I was torn between that and Starbucks. A lack of splurge money at our house made free strawberries and cream frappucinos sound really good. The deciding factor was that I remembered I still have two boxes of Samoas secretly stashed away, so those will be my splurge for now and I'll spend some money on Amazon.


I'm seriously loving Swagbucks more and more each day! I really can't find a single thing wrong with the program. No one else gave me money to do my regular internet searches. No one else gave me money when my friends did internet searches. Swagbucks rocks!!

Anyway, I want to cash some of my bucks in for gift cards, but I can't decide what to get. Want to help me decide? Here are my choices, based on the number of bucks I have.

$20 Target (online only)
$20 Starbucks
$25 Amazon
$20 Barnes & Noble (online only)
$15 i-Tunes

For those who haven't checked out the gift cards they offer, let me just give you a list of places you can get them for. These are all e-gift cards, except for the Starbucks one. Ready? Here they are, from most to least expensive.

Saks Fifth Avenue
QVC
Musician's Friend
Apple
Zappos
JC Penney
Golfsmith
Victoria's Secret
Sephora
Microsoft Xbox Live Points (twice for different amounts)
ESPN
Lowe's
REI
Petco
Ticketmaster
Bass Pro Shops
Fandango
Wii Points
Southwest Airlines
Macy's
Disney (the store, not the amusement park)
Target
iTunes
Starbucks
Barnes & Noble
Amazon.ca and Amazon.com
DiNG
Used Video Game Store
Zendoo
Spaceland Recordings

At the rate I'm going, I don't think I'll ever get to the top of the list, but time will tell! I'll either have to earn bucks faster or be willing to wait longer. Meanwhile, I'm happy with the prizes I'm getting from the bottom third of the list. A prize is a prize, after all! I just can't pick which one I want most.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

5/14/09 THANKFUL THURSDAY

I'm thankful that we rent a comfortable house with a big yard in a great neighborhood.

What's one thing that you are thankful for?

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

COPING WITH MY CRISIS #3

I actually feel a bit silly typing this because I'm doing so much better now, which I credit to people praying for me and to some of the things I've been doing to cope. However, since hard times will come again and because my ways of coping may help someone else, I'll continue posting them.

As I've said before, I'm not going to get into the nitty gritty of what was making life so hard. What I will say is that it was a combination of things - circumstances, various relationships, physical things, etc. It had all been building up for a while and I reached rock bottom about two weeks ago. It was the worst day I've ever had emotionally and mentally.

So, one of the things I started doing on that horrible day was to earnestly pray for insight about what the root of the problems were, practical things I could do to improve any of the situations, expectations I needed to change, etc. The result of those prayers? Primarily three things - some changes in the scheduling of our day (both the kids' time and my time), a shift in how I prioritize my day, and a sudden awareness of an unmet physical need of someone else in our family. The schedule changes, which were pretty minor, have resulted in major improvements in a couple areas that were causing stress. The changing of priorities has been hard in some ways, but the positive impact has been obvious. The physical need of the other family member is now being met and we're all reaping the benefits of that.

While the changes have all been things I could just chalk up to "oh, I had an idea", I know the Lord brought them to mind. How do I know? Because they were so incredibly simple and obvious, yet I hadn't thought of them until I begged for wisdom in the situation.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

THE FIRST STEP




As I've talked about before, Tim and I have always had a desire to foster and/or adopt out of the foster system. We'd never done anything about it though. So, between the fact that we fell in love with Ciara in the fall and the fact that we've been increasingly convicted about the fact that we are supposed to look after orphans (and yes, we consider kids who can't live with their parents "orphans" to the extent that they need someone to love and care for them while their own parents can't), we decided to take the eight class series for training foster parents.
We don't know if the Lord will open the doors for us to have foster kids, but we're doing all we can on our end to make it happen. After all, if that's what he'd have us doing, then we need to have our ducks in a row. If the doors to fostering close, then we'll have a peace knowing that we gave it our best shot and move on to some other ways to meet the needs of those kids. We simply don't have a choice. We must look after them in some way, to make a difference in their lives in whatever way we are able.
James 1:27 Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.

Monday, May 11, 2009

BUNCHES OF BLANKETS: #3 - #7

I busted out five blankets on Thursday night. That's right. Five. That's a bit much for one night, I've discovered.

Anyway, here they are. I didn't do pics of the full blankets, but did a closeup of the printed side with the solid side folded over a little instead. Feel free to ignore the majorly crooked seams. Guess next time I'll be sure to take pics of areas where my seams are perfectly straight in order to keep my pride intact.






Here's a sidenote. I gave my first blanket to Becky. Three days later and at 21 weeks she was put on bedrest. I gave my second blanket to Tamie. Four days later and at 35 weeks she was put on modified bedrest. I gave my third blanket to Jess on Saturday. We'll see how her week goes. If she ends up on bedrest, then I think I'll only give blankets out after babies are born!





Sunday, May 10, 2009

MOTHER'S DAY - 2009


Here I am with the little Ws. What a bunch of hams they are! Go see how much they (and the boys' hair) has grown since last year.

If you'd like to "meet" my mom, then head over to my dad's blog where he honored her.

Friday, May 8, 2009

MENU - FIRST HALF OF MAY 2009

Almost every day there is a "What's for dinner?" thread on the Sonlight forums. It's a great place for me to get ideas and recipes. So, a little over two years ago I asked a group of friends if they'd want to do an e-mail version. The group has had some people come and go, but for more than two years we've been swapping dinner ideas via an e-mail I'd send out each morning.

Well, a few weeks ago I stopped sending the e-mail. I was re-prioritizing my time and that had to go. However, in the few weeks since then I've had several people talk to me about planning menus. So, I've come up with a compromise.

I make a dinner menu and grocery list twice a month. I used to assign meals to specific days, but my tendency to be a little bit of a box-checker led me to get all flustered when life got in the way of my menu. Now I just have a list of 15-16 dinners and each morning I choose the one I'll make that night. I love knowing that I have everything I need for half a month's worth of dinners. Makes life so much easier.

The other thing that simplifies things a little is that we always have leftovers on Sunday and each week includes Taco Tuesday. That leaves only five dinners each week that I have to think about.

Anyway, my compromise on sharing my dinner plans is to just post my two week dinner menu here twice a month. Maybe you'll find some culinary inspiration. Maybe it will remind you of a great recipe you think I'd like and you'll share it with me. Maybe you'll think it's a waste of space. It will be what it will be. So, without further ado, here are the dinners we're having for the first half of May.

DINNERS
tacos x2
leftovers x2
black bean and couscous salad/tortilla chips
ham/potatoes/salad
potato enchiladas/broccoli
meatball sandwiches/raw veggie slices
broccoli pesto french bread/salad
pinwheels and gravy/fruit
creamy tomato soup/biscuits/salad
rice cooker mac and cheese/salad
spaghetti squash lasagna/salad
winter fruit salad with lemon poppy seed dressing/cracked wheat & rice pilaf

DESSERTS
carrot pie
brownies
lemon bars

Thursday, May 7, 2009

5/7/09 THANKFUL THURSDAY

I'm thankful that I've had three good days in a row.

What is something that you're thankful for?

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

BODIES ARE WEIRD - THE DEVON VERSION

UPDATE: Have I ever mentioned how much I love the Sonlight forums? I have? A lot? Well, here's another reason. One of the women there, who also happens to be a pediatrician, told me what the thing on Devon's head is. I wasn't concerned about it, but still a little curious. She said it's a solitary mastocytoma and the swelling is Darier's sign. So, there you go.

When Devon was two months old he got a mark on the side of his head. At first we thought it was a bug bite, but it just turned brown and flat. The doctor said it was a birthmark that just came a little after birth. Weird, but whatever.

Here it is. No big deal.




Well, this little birthmark has a special feature that we'd forgotten about. When Devon was an infant he'd periodically scratch the birthmark and it would turn red and swell up. Weird, but whatever.

Flash forward almost five years to last week. The boys were goofing off and next thing I know Devon's birthmark is swollen. I can only assume it got scratched.

Here's what it looked like. Kinda gross.




No discomfort of any kind, but it looks like a marble got shoved under his skin. Isn't that bizarre?

Anyway, he wanted to know what was going on and immediately called Becky, his favorite nurse, who assured him it would be flat by the time his nap, which he was about to go down for, was finished. And it was. Weird, but whatever.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

COPING WITH MY CRISIS #2

There's not a lot I learned about in college that I use on a regular basis, but listening to pianist David Lanz is an exception. Every time I attended my Stress Management class the prof had mellow music playing until his lecture started. One time it was David Lanz and I got hooked.

When I feel my stress level going up and my patience plummeting, then I'll often listen to Lanz. I have one of his CDs, often check some out from the library, and have a "David Lanz" station on Pandora (other musicians are also on that station, but they're similar). His music is mellow enough to calm me down, not so mellow that it puts me to sleep, and is only instrumental. It's the perfect background music when I'm folding laundry, making dinner, or paying bills online.

Monday, May 4, 2009

"PURCHASE"

That's the button I just clicked. Our Sonlight curriculum for the next school year, which we start in July, will soon be packed in Colorado and shipped to Oregon.

Box day ... here we come!!

Kindergarten and second grade ... here we come!!

Heirloom membership on the forums ... here I come!!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

COPING WITH MY CRISIS #1

I said I'd share some of the ways I'm dealing with my little mid-life crisis, so here's one way. I am reading the following passage a lot. Particularly on the days I feel like particularly hopeless.

Psalm 13
How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, O Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death; my enemy will say, "I have overcome him," and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me.

The first stanza is exactly how I feel on my hardest days. It's like the struggles I'm facing will never end, like I'm fighting an uphill battle. Alone. And though circumstances are the tangible things weighing on me, my mind is enemy number one. That's where I wallow in self-pity, over-analyze instead of just taking action, dwell on the negatives instead of looking for positives, and let life's hardships consume me.

The second stanza touches on my fear of failure. As I'm typing this post I'm realizing it just may have a little to do with pride too. I want to succeed. I don't want people to look at me and say "man, she sure fell apart ... just couldn't handle the life she had". And for the record, lest you think that verse hits too close to home, I'm not suicidal. Just clarifying that point.

The third stanza is my goal. Even on the days where I most want to run away to some deserted island. Of course, those days are the hardest to trust, rejoice and sing. But I try. Even if it's just to think of one little thing that is good in my life. Or to put on worship music and hear someone else sing about God's goodness when I just can't muster it up myself.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

IT WORKED!!

Hannah posted more pics, even at the risk of poor mental health. What a trooper!!

Friday, May 1, 2009

BOOKS I FINISHED - APRIL 2009

Pathetic. I only finished one book in the whole month. Oh well. One is better than none. Right?

Look Me in the Eye: My Life with Asperger's, by John Elder Robison
This is the story of a man who was considered to be deviant, rude, weird, and other non-flattering things as a child, though he never understood why. Well into adulthood he discovered he had Asperger's, a high functioning version of autism, which explained many of the struggles he faced as a child. As someone who feels like our culture is over-diagnosed, over-medicated, and often using diagnoses as an excuse for bad behavior, I really appreciated that this book focused on the ways that Asperger's helped the author, though not denying the struggles that it caused. It was much more of a "here's the reality, for better or worse" and not at all a "woe is me" kind of story.